NED LAGIN

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MY MODELING - I AM MY OWN LIFE'S MODEL

"You don't make a photograph just with a camera. You bring to the act of photography all the pictures you have seen, the books you have read, the music you have heard, the people you have loved." - Ansel Adams

"Since my subjects have always been my sensations, my states of mind and the profound reaction that life has been producing in me, I have frequently objectified all this in figures of myself, which were the most sincere and real things that I could do in order to express what I felt inside and outside my self." - Frida Kahlo

"This world demands the qualities of youth; not a time of life but a state of mind, a temper of will, a quality of the imagination, a predominance of courage over timidity, of the appetite for adventure over the life of ease." - Robert Kennedy

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I used to be a camera. Now I am a picture (now I am really both).

In some of my works, one sees the photographer (me) as subject and context, corporeality and spirit. Individual feeling and meaning. Using my own image, my self, and my own relation to photography, and to art and to picture world, does not conform to some cultural and aesthetic pre-conceptions about (naked) self as subject and content. My context: middle-aged heterosexual male.

Living inside picture world.

In an age of seeing (looking).

Picture being.

I am my own life's model.

The expression (incarnate) (corporally) of my feelings and desires, thoughts, senses, spirit, life.

Artifacts of me, ephemeral and eternal.

The feeling and the meaning.

More light than heat.

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I started doing nude photography of female models in 1978. As a photographer (being the camera) I was, like those who viewed my pictures, a voyeur of other's (the model's) being seen - their physicality, their sensuality, their feelings.

Most of my life I have avoided pictures being made of me. I have modeled for only a very few others - painters, body paint artists, and photographers for music recording releases. I never thought about being a model, a visible subject, content, or a picture.

Beginning in 2003, I became my own life's model, being not only a photographer but a primary subject, a picture. Instead of only picturing someone else or something else to represent or portray my feelings. Changing my sensual and emotional distance. Being seen, first as a tiny figure in large landscapes (light in the silence); then closer to the camera (and viewer) not anonymous with models (artifacts of desire, and body painted and other works); then alone in studio self portraits (reflections of solitude, created by my self or with the help of models, assistants).

Modeling, being in my own photography (being the picture) is like playing my own music (being both composer and player - being the music). The natural history of picture world - art, life, intimacy, and presence are all re- framed by electronic picture (and sound) world media.

Over the years of this work, women have been my immediate social surroundings; some close friends, some models, assistants, and print makers. The first and primary viewers of my work. I am the only male I photo, the only male/maleness I want to portray.

I have been partially affected/influenced by women photographers and artists who put themselves, their bodies, in their art - their own images, feelings, and sensuality the subject. Erasing the line between life and art, their lives and their art, between vanity and exhibitionism, voyeurism and intimacy. Their self-reflection, and being their own subject, not considered narcissistic, but part of the meaning.

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